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I am trying my best to be I suppose you could call it a student of life. In my own way I am trying to learn and understand more about life in general and of people all people. To get a better understanding of actions and reactions to situations in life. What I am learning is of how little I really know or understand. Sounds strange maybe but I realize the more I think I learn the less I realize I understand???? A few examples of the things that having me going, HUH???

Now, I think it is a fair statement to make, that, the vast majority of people do not want to die. Now that sounds pretty straight forward and simple. I can easily understand that, I can relate to that. Now here is the part I just do not understand. We do not want to die so obviously we want to go on living, our lives are precious to us. Again, I can certainly relate. Now here is the part I don’t understand. We all recognize and appreciate how precious our lives are, how precious our time on this planet is. But, do we really? We each know our individual time here is limited, we see how precious it is, but what are we doing with it? Why do we take time for granted always assuming there will be many tomorrows in which we can enjoy life. I think we live with so many thoughts of the future we forget to live today. Not sure where I heard this: “Life is not about learning how to weather a storm; it is about learning how to dance in the rain.” Thank about that as you go about your day.

As a society it seems to me anyway, that we are only comfortable dealing with or even thinking about death and dying when it is maybe in the abstract almost. By that I mean when it is happening to people far far away. People that we are not related to or associated with in anyway and somehow talking about them dying is an “OK” subject. Or, at least it doesn’t seem to make us feel as uncomfortable. Suddenly though if the topic hits closer to home it becomes more uncomfortable, we don’t want to talk about it or even think about it. Is it the fear of loss that affects us so deeply. A loved one passes and we have a really sense of loss. It is not only a sense of loss but a real loss in our lives. Without that person there our lives are changed forever, no denying that. Our lives are changed yes but can be and will be just as good with time. i have to wonder, we are grieving a loss, is that our main fear in this whole thing. We are grieving our own personal loss what is missing out of our lives. I don’t know are we really grieving more for ourselves than the other person. I don’t know that was just a thought that popped into my head.

What about if we are facing our own passing? Well actually that statement applies to every single person on this planet, it is just the timing. Struggling with wording, does that make sense? Can we become so obsessed with not wanting to lose our lives that we forget to live them while we still can?

Wow, I really got off track here as I rambled on. I’ve got to share a new perspective. It is when you lose people in terms of relationships. When people get into relationships or what you call friends with benefits, this is time when their priorities change; they value their partner more and dike you whenever they want to. This is so unfair. For the past six months this happens frequently with me. What to do? I can’t get any solutions to this issue. Then I thought how about we be the same with them and talk to them the way we used to. They may realize some day that they were wrong and come back to you, but this technique of mine seems to be a heart eiderdown, it’s not working too. Good luck to all those people who fall in this category.

As this was the last post of this file, I’ll take a week off before I start a new file.

Good Day 🙂


Starting to feel a lot better, not that I was feeling anything but tired. It is amazing how traveling can tire me out. I got home from my wonderful visit, but based on how tired I was, you could have thought that I had walked the entire way.

Usually, if I decide to have a nap I can drop off the sleep pretty much anywhere. That is unless I am sitting in an upright position. I learned something on this trip. Now I am not sure if this applies to all cars or just the model I was on. If your seat is right infront of dashboard, the seat doesn’t recline at all. Who knew? Well not me anyway.

Past few days I have been felling a little down. Partly, because of leaving my little princesses and partly I know from just being tired. I slept very poorly my last night there. It was almost like I didn’t want to go to sleep as I knew as soon as I awoke I would be leaving. I wanted to extend my waking time there as long as possible. I think I got about 3 hours sleep and then missed my cherished afternoon nap. I was fatigued, but have caught up and the world is better.

Accepting physical limitations is difficult for anyone. I think that this is even more so the case if indeed you limitations are lessening with time. Lessening with time but at a gradual rate almost sneaking up on you. On a day by day basis you don’t even realize it is happening. It is only when you try to exert yourself or push yourself even a little that you can see a difference. A difference in what you can do today compared to say a year ago or sometimes even just a few months ago.

I can now look back over virtually my entire life time and see how I ignored what my body was often telling me, that it needed rest. I was caught on the fast tread mill of life and just pushed harder and harder. No time for a break or a rest just push through. I can rest later when things aren’t quite so hectic. It seemed though that life just never got any less hectic and proper rest was always that elusive goal down the line somewhere. It is no secret everyone knows I take my afternoon nap but these days it is so not possible. I am not sure how many people have made some sort of a comment as to how much they envy that. How they wish they could get a little extra rest but just have no time. Caught on that ever rushing never ending treadmill of life. Constantly rushing forward, but to where and to what? Struggle and fight, push yourself to get through today, just so you can get up and do it all over again tomorrow.

I have heard the expression countless times, “Your health is everything.” We all know this but still fail to take it to heart. We push our bodies beyond their limits eventually to the breaking point, and why? If we truly look at the big picture of life by pushing go hard, by working so hard, what have we accomplished? I can assure you when you realize you are dying, the size of your house or the price tag on the car in the driveway will suddenly make no difference at all. The reality of what is important in life will suddenly hit you in the face and it does have nothing to do with money.

I would hope that any that may read this, would just ask themselves one question! Am I trapped on that “treadmill” of life? Pushing, working, punishing our bodies thinking, life will be easier or better when I just get over that next hill in the road of life. When I get past this one obstacle or reach that one goal, life will be better and I can relax a little. If that is the case then wonderful. But, I have to wonder for how many that is true. Is it more likely that we will get ourselves past this one “issue” only to find ourselves immediately facing another? We go in a circle as now we think; once I get past this life will be golden. I think it is more likely we just jump from one “treadmill” to the next, with each moving a little faster than the past. We push harder, punishing our bodies more and more.

When is enough, enough? I am not sure, is it human nature that causes us to constantly strive for more, for bigger, for better? We punish and use up our bodies in this never ending quest.

Wow, just started going and got onto a real ramble here. I started off simply going to say something like: It is only now at this point in my life that I can really appreciate the need for our bodies to rest. That not only applies to me now, but to everyone. In times gone by I have just never realized how important it is.  I suppose my point is happiness, contentment, satisfaction all come from within.
We don’t need to punish or abuse our bodies to attain that.

If you think you cannot earn or you have limitations, why not limit or ruminate over your budget. I know multi-millionaires, what have they got? Huge houses, expensive cars, probably a hot chick!!! I am happy with what I have. At least I can sleep well at night and not worry about things. Live life with a huge friend circle who actually care for you, live with people who actually text everyday and ask how many smokes I had and I should reduce the amount, have I eaten anything or not. I’m sure multi-millionaires dont get this opportunity and if they do I really want to meet one. If I buy laptop, its mine, my property, something what I earned, lucky I am. Don’t boast on your dad’s wealth it’ll surely bring you disgrace someday.

A new file a new reflection. Here i continue with some more crappy stuff…

So a past few days were awesome and I learned a couple of things which were worth listing and acting upon. I suppose it is more just feeling really tired and worn out. I have the luxury of being able to take a nap whenever I please and have really been taking advantage of that. A day certainly does fly by when you sleep most of it away.

As with everything in life I have to find the right balance. When I woke from what was I think my 3rd nap yesterday the thought really hit me. I am sleeping so much of my precious time away. Here is where finding the right balance comes in. There are times in life when we do have to push ourselves just to get things done. Each of us needs to find the balance the right point between just being lazy and over doing it. The big question is how hard do we push ourselves? Push too hard and it is at the disbursement of your health. The opposite side of the coin is, don’t push yourself hard enough and you can become just plain lazy and morose. That can also be at the expense of your health and at the same time deny you the ability to really live life.

I have to really think on this. Could I be pushing myself harder, of course I could. Could I push myself to the point I go through the day without napping at all, of course I could. I have done it many times. We can always push ourselves a little harder to get a little more done.

Quantity is something that is not guaranteed in life. This applies to everything in our physical lives. This applies to everything from the amount of money we have, the number of friends we have, right down to the amount of time we have. Here we are back to “our time”. I have heard of time being referred to as our most valuable asset, our most valuable commodity.

For me to get things straight in my head, I often need to come up with a physical comparable. This is what I have come up with.

I think everyone will agree, money is a valuable asset, we need it. We use it to buy our food, clothing, shelter, all the necessities of life. For most of us, it is usually in short supply. We struggle through the month budgeting and spending our money wisely. We know we have a limited quantity of it, we make do with what we have and try to make the most of it and if we accommodate our necessities the rest is spent on luxuries, a new laptop, cell phone, go out on a short holiday. I usually do that and I don’t realize the amount I waste on these unwanted luxuries. I am sure life would teach me this lesson to. Though I earn my own living, still money can’t be thrown down the drain like this.

I take that same thought process and now apply it to our time on this earth. For each of us individually our time on this earth is a very valuable “commodity” our most valuable resource. We need to understand it is a “limited” resource and a “non renewable” resource.

I am not sure how well I was able to use my comparable. We spend our time, we spend our money. As we near the end of any given month we may run out of money and look back regretting the way we may have foolishly wasted it throughout the month. We may struggle then but are comforted knowing another pay cheque is but days away. In that way money is a renewable resource.

Our time is not. When we near the end of our days, will we be looking back full of regret over how foolishly we spent and wasted so much precious time.

I am 20 and I don’t know how long will I live, may be tomorrow is my day or maybe I’ll be able to see my daughter and son graduating from school and earning their own living one day. I hope so. We usually think this worldly life is all we are made for, but we haven’t skilled the life after death.

We all know somebody who is a double-talker, a gossip and a generally untrustworthy person. They are cruel to their enemies and even meaner to their friends – only with the friends the mean streak only comes out when their backs are turned. This type of friend is all sweetness and sugar to people’s faces but actually and spiteful behind their backs. We call people like this “backstabbers” because they sneak around portraying themselves as something they are not, a friend. Do you have one of these snakes in your life? Are you wondering if a bud is really a dud?

What are friends, friends are supposed to be there for you but what about the ones that turns away, when you thought that they were supposed to be there. I call that a backstabber I am tired of all the evil in the world people turn on people, brawl, gossip that is all you see. Why can’t it be like it use to be, where everyone gets along and no one grabs a gun and starts shooting at each other what is wrong. I know what is wrong we need to set aside the differences and look at one another and stop back stabbing and start helping each other, do things together and help those in need instead of fighting, shooting and hating. It should be about love and friendship, careering is the most important thing in the world and we have forgotten about it and we need to remember that without one another. We aren’t anything but body’s taken up empty space but with each other we can make a difference. As you grow up life starts to twist like a maze and becomes more complicated, this is usually between the ages of 17-27 years.

I have experienced a lot of them, each from a different field, why do these people exist, don’t they have any shame. I have trusted quite few people in my life with money, deals, secrets or anything that was dear to me, but they either wait for fraudulent chances or hurt your feelings. These people have an aliment called covetousness.

A momentary look at the backstabbers,

Santosh Kumar, Sharif Qureshi, Ishaq Hassan, Faisal Siddiq, Usman khan, Danish Chaudhry, Ahmad Madha and Imran Madha, Monis dara.

I never have thought about the past nor have peeped in the future, but I pray to God to grant me the strength to take revenge from these bastards. Backstabbers usually are the nearest and the dearest who show their actual face at the time of need. May God decontaminate our lives with these backstabbers. There are still many more to mention but they are either not important or I have forgiven them. 🙂

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